whatshouldwecallme:

Lets face it. I suck at blogging. Its been months since I’ve posted on tumblr. Oh well. Life has been a whirlwind of good and bad things. JUNIOR YEAR IS ALMOST OVER SO LETS CELEBRATE! I’m in such a good place right now. This summer is going to be an amazing but busy one and I can’t wait to get it started!!!

      Wow. It has been a LONG time since I have posted anything on Tumblr and it is a shame! This weekend has taught me a whole lot and I am in a whole lot of deep crap. I ripped a $300 swim suit (LZR) on Friday so I had to buy another one for my next race. Then on saturday, I proceeded to leave that suit at UIC and someone stole it. So now I owe my parents $300 plus I have to pay for another one. Wow-I am going to be working my butt off this summer.

      I also learned that many people truly aren’t who you think they are. I do not mean that in a bad way. I just have realized that people keep in a lot more emotions than anyone expects. You never know what your comments will do to people over and over again. So just watch what you say next time around and listen to people.

      This weekend has been really tough but also full of life-lessons and I am ready to put the bad parts behind me and learn from all that has happened. Because of all of this I have decided to add things to my LENT list. My original thing was to give up/cut back on my swearing. So far it has been going pretty well. Here are my two additions:

1. Be a better daughter. Listen to what my parents ask of me and to actually do what they ask-not just put it off and say I will do it later.

2. Be more self aware of my comments, actions, and focus more on getting the job done.

Starting this week-i am going to try to be a whole new Liza. Let’s see how this goes…

For some reason this weekend, I realized something. It isn’t very profound or earth-shattering or maybe all that important to anyone else. I realized that I have changed. Drastically. This weekend I just felt more comfortable in my own skin and with my choices than ever before in high school. I have matured and grown into someone I am proud to be. As I hung out with people this weekend, I realized how much more outgoing I am than I was in my first two years of high school, and that is saying something. People I am not even friends with became easy to talk to as I have realized how much less insecure I am now. Its refreshing to feel this way and it is awesome to be at peace with yourself. I just hope everyone else can say the same by the end of high school.

It seems that relationships are so complicated in high school. All any teenager wants is to feel needed but all everyone else wants is to know the hot gossip. As soon as it seems like there is a possibility for a relationship some little thing happens and it seems like everything is going wrong. Insecurities flare and irrationals thoughts fly. Why. Why do we assume the worst even when it might not be bad? Why can’t guys just be straightforward? It would make high school about 10000000000 x easier. Literally.